Ariellah Darker Still
It Feels Like or Liquid Drainage
Updated: Jun 14, 2022
It Feels Like
OR (liquid drainage into non-existence)
it’s like feeling like
you are between that thin veil
but truly, (if you are honest)
you have already,
little by little,
dissolved into oblivion
.yes. .you have already surpassed that.
.are on the other side.
.falling into transparency.
.merely an empty glass.
by life’s heavy coat. never intended alas, all the same, transpired. left to feel
left to feel
things are lost
(the heart grieves so much knowing this)
wishing so much to retrieve
all life that once shone
(with glittering teeth abundancy and incandescent radiance)
(you could always
now reduced to but a dim dark pebble.
over there. like the kind you pass by on your walk down the street, unnoticed.
the underside of a rock even.
more lifeless and unseen,
passed over and ugly,
than any leaf blowing in the wind than any unmarked grave
than any unseen shift of your leg under a table
Uncared for Glossed over Forgotten given to being treated as mediocre. Microwaved Responses. Hand Outs Galore.
more perceived understanding now
and with it,
a disdain not anger,
more sorrow. disdain
downward casted lid and sunken head slowly sinking Feeling Within Deeply no preciousness
The river streaming now Inside the outlet of her eyes Nightly Daily
Daily A true river it perseveres never lets up now and sheds any remnants, any resemblance, to those beautiful embers that
were so clearly burning (so very fiercely) before
BEFORE one would hope to touch it
reach for it hope to meld and become one with it be near it
breathe it BEFORE now,
only Liquid Drainage Into Non Existence thee flattening of existence
til’ it is completely flat
to drift and walk away into nature’s meadow and lose ones-self forever .never to be missed. render into non-existence and flow into oblivion Nothingness
reach out and slip away
Into the forest
To be immersed
Taken away by want
In front of
And away from the behind
the corn fields
(this is how her river feels and flows nightly in the depths of her mind)